Sorry, I know it's not very grown-up to yell like that but if I did if for real I think the neighbors might get upset. I feel like my heart has been so battered and bruised lately and I know the girls are going thru it right along with me. I don't even know how to put into words what I am feeling accept helpless and sad...where to start....
After the whole ordeal with Remi and then not getting that little puppy that we drove to Ft Worth to get, I feel like this whole process of getting another dog has been such a mess and so NOT the picture perfect event it was supposed to be. Miley is a wonderful dog but from the very begining we just haven't felt like we "clicked". We have tried to convince ourselves that she was meant to be ours and that it was better to have a not-so-little dog. Maybe we're really not a little dog kind of family. I really do like her, she is a real sweetheart and it has been a better transition than I could have ever hoped for , however her and Karma have been having issues for almost a week now and they aren't going away. At first it started over food the girls were dropping from the table or feeding them in the livingroom watching tv. By the sounds of it, you would think they are killing each other when in fact they aren't even touching each other but rather just growling like mad. We've made sure they are on different sides of the room to eat, told the girls to not feed them at all and now they still seem to break into these bouts of growling that come out of no where! They have never acted out any of this aggression towards people but I know that it would only take once of the girls getting in the way and I don't think I could live with myself if something happened. On the other hand, I feel like a failure and a quiter and I second guess everything. Did we rush into it because we were so upset at not getting the puppy we thought we were? Am I being too particular and expecting too much?
Last night a friend of mine and I were talking and she mentioned that they were looking for a dog....They don't have any other animals and are looking for a smaller dog for their kids. It took me a day to work up the courage (and long talks iwth Jason) to offer Miley to them....I love her and hate to see her go but on the other hand I have to look out for my kids and Karma first, but that doesn't make this choice any easier, especially seeing the hurt on Janie's face when we explained it all to her...making grown up choices stinks!