Sunday, March 7, 2010

Missing in Action

I feel like it has been FOREVER since I was able to do something therapeutic like knitting, reading or writing on this blog. I swear it's like I've been missing in action! lol The last week things were really coming down to the wire for getting things ready to get the house on the market. My dear hubby has been working so hard that I feel guilty for feeling so tired and emotional. I can't believe everything he has gotten done in a really short about of time and it makes me feel bad that we didn't get it all done sooner so that WE could enjoy the house in such great shape! It's been a never ending job gettign this house how we wanted. I'll try to how you why another time...

...it's finally sinking in that we are leaving and all I can do is cry. (It's also my time of the month so I'm hoping it's mostly hormones making me feel so emotional) Now that everything is pretty much packed and we are in a shell of a house, I am really starting to feel it all soaking in....mad that we finally have friends here after years of hating it here, frustrated that all the things I wanted to do fun for school are packed now, disappointed that we didn't get to go to MO where we'd have some comforts (including friends we consider family and a house we had lined up that would have been "perfect"), bummed that the house is finally how we want it for someone else to get to enjoy and scared out of my mind that the house will sell and we'll be living in a travel trailer for months...not to mention terrified that the house won't sell at all!!! I thought I was scared at the idea of living in one place but this moving is really getting to me!!



wiping tears....



deep breaths.....



sigh....



another deep breath....



Then I come to my senses and think, of course our house will sell. People would be crazy not to buy a house that has been completely redone, huge back yard, nice new covered porch, new heater and roof etc...of course they are going to buy it in a matter of days, leaving us plenty of time to find a nice travel trailer for a great price with everything we want in it....living in a trailer will be just the adventure we need. Hey, that's why we homeschool...we like adventure...we like being able to pick up and make school go along with us! With a trailer we'll get to take our comforts with us on the road and won't have to rush into a house that's not perfect for us on the other end just because we need somewhere to live! We've always wanted a travel trailer and this is the perfect reason to get one right?

Yes I know I'm crazy but I'm also incredibly tired and sad at what we are leaving behind....I'm off to look at houses in Washington. That should perk me up...think trees...think mountains...think organic produce! lol Tomorrow will be a better day! The sign goes in the yard!

3 comments:

MelissaInk said...

Oh, Hallie.

We're both going to be OK. I was right there with you - hating this place, having trouble making friends, living in a house we worked so hard on, etc.

I'm having those same fears (too fast, too slow, NOT AT ALL).

It is what it is. Me being bitchy and stressed and negative isn't going to change a thing about it.

You'll be OK. I'll be OK. We have so much to look forward to. REALLY.

Deep breaths.

Robin said...

Hang in there! :) I wanted you guys here so badly but you really are going to a place that is a better fit for you than here would have been. And we'd love to do an Oregon/Washington trip someday... I'd love to get an RV and live in it but with the dog & the cat... I'll have to live that adventure through your blog, if you do it, for now. ol. So hang in there - it will be okay, altho' it's nerve wracking - I remember it well. :)
Love ya1

ngwblography said...

Hallie, got your blog comment. Yes, feel free to share the link of iditarod photos. Glad you have enjoyed them! Best, Nathaniel